Keep your clichés and give me coffee.

Can I get real with you for a second?

This mom business is freakin’ hard.

Everyone tells you it’s tough, but it’s worth it. That your life will change in so many ways, but that ultimately, becoming a parent was the best thing they ever did.

I’ll agree, but I’m also calling bullshit.

I’m calling bullshit because they say it’s hard, but they don’t tell you how. They say it’s tiring, that you won’t sleep, but they don’t tell you what eight months (or a year, or two) of broken sleep really looks like. They sugar coat and gloss over the hard parts, making cliché comments like “the days are long but the years are short” and “don’t blink, you’ll miss it.”

But I wouldn’t do that to you.

Let me preface this by saying I love my kid. He really is the best thing that’s ever happened to me, and I wouldn’t give him up for anything in the world (most of the time). Watching him grow and change over the last few months has me in awe, wishing time would both speed up so he can learn more and slow down so he can be small forever. So in some ways, I agree with all those isn’t-parenting-the-best-thing-evarrr people.

But if I’m being completely honest, I’ve been completely blindsided by how hard it was going to be.

I didn’t expect the stress and anxiety I would have after he was born, leaving me incapable of focusing on anything else, 24/7, for at least, like, eight weeks.

I didn’t expect that the lack of sleep would leave me short-tempered and hotheaded (yes, mom, even more so than normal), picking fights with a husband who is genuinely doing his best to help.

I didn’t expect that eight months later, I’d still be struggling to get dishes done, or clothes put away, or any number of things that responsible adults are supposed to be capable of doing.

Having Franklin has been simultaneously unifying and isolating, giving me something in common with the millions of parents out there, but making me feel like I’m alone in my seeming ineptitude. Surely everyone can’t have a house this messy? Surely other people somehow manage to adult better than this? Am I the only person who doesn’t know what the hell their kid is crying about?

If not, if it’s really this hard for everyone, WHY DOESN’T ANYONE TELL YOU THAT?!

Granted, my kid is alive, healthy and happy. And my dogs are alive and reasonably happy with their new, lower status on the totem pole (and extremely happy with the fact that Franklin has started solid foods). But really — is everyone else just pretending that they’re good at this?

Because I don’t know about you, but I feel pretty damned inadequate sometimes.

Sure, my Instagram is filled with his smiling, adorable face, because he smiles a lot and is generally happy.

But it’s also because pausing to take a picture when he’s screaming his head off mid-diaper change is a bit impractical.

And because damn it, if I’m working this hard, you better believe I’m gonna show him off.

Part of me knows that the good stuff, the really good stuff everyone talks about, is yet to come. That he’s developing into a tiny little person that will eventually do more than need held up, picked up and stopped from eating dog food. And that one day, I’ll look back on this time with my well-earned, rose-colored lenses, and tell some struggling mama I see at the store to cherish it, because the time goes too fast.

But right now? Right now I’m just keeping my head above water, dodging the two-week-high pile of laundry in my bedroom and ignoring the stack of dishes in my sink because the tiny little human who owns my entire heart wants up.

Or down.

Or up again.

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Sigh.

My goodness, I love this boy.

I suppose everything else really can wait.

Stitch Fix Review: Fix #6

Every once in a while, Stitch Fix will offer to waive the styling fee in order to get you to try out their service again. When they just so happen to do that right when I was considering ordering a box anyway, well, you know I had to.

Bonus: If you decide you want to give Stitch Fix a shot, they’re currently offering a Give $25, Get $25 for orders that ship before July 28. So if you use the links in this post, you’ll have a $25 credit waiting on you!

A quick reminder for anyone who doesn’t know, Stitch Fix is an online service where you set up a profile, pay $20 and have a personal stylist send you five curated items they think will suit your needs/wants. Once they arrive, you get three days to try things on, mix-and-match with items from your own closet, and decide what you want to keep. If you keep anything, your $20 up front goes toward your final total; if you keep everything, you get a 25% discount on the entire box. It’s super easy and, if you’re like me and hate to shop, easy is what you need when you need new clothes. Plus, referral links (like the ones in this post) get you $25 credit for each time someone orders a fix.

OK. Here we go! Stitch Fix review, complete with terrible bathroom shots!

First up: Skies are Blue, Crochet Trim Top


I had to text 4 people on this one, all because I didn’t think I liked it, but Darrell said he did. Ultimately, I’ve decided the boxy style is unflattering on my body type. The size was right, just the way it was cut doesn’t work for me.

Cost: $48. Verdict: Sent back.

Next up, from the same company (Skies are Blue), the Abner Back Cutout Detail Top.


I really wanted to like this tank top – I love the cutout design – but the fit wasn’t right. It was baggier around the bust than it should be, and left big gaps under my arms. And again, kind of boxy, leaving me looking like a giant square.

Plus, let’s be honest: Mama’s gotta wear a bra under her shirts, and this cutout style top isn’t going to cut it.

Cost: $48. Verdict: Sent back.

For the last of the tops, the Nelda Halter Blouse, from Pixley.


I actually really like the style and print of this top, but once again, the fit was all wrong. It was too big in the bust, leaving lots of room under the arms. And, again, strapless bras are just not my jam right now, and therefore neither is this shirt.

Cost: $44. Verdict: Sent back.

When it comes to these shirts, either I’m just not in style, or maybe I need to size down on my style profile, but something’s not quite right. I’m hoping the next fix I order can get to the bottom of this.

Anyway, onto the dress! This one’s from Collective Concepts – the Chantelle Dress.


That’s the face you make when taking a backside selfie, obviously.

I have to tell you, I really liked this dress. Unfortunately, where the waistline sits really accentuated the fact that my stomach is still soft after having a baby.

Or after all those doughnuts people keep bringing into the office.

Whichever.

Either way, I’m bummed about this one because it was oh-so-close to being oh-so-right.

Le sigh.

Cost: $88. Verdict: Sent back.

And last but, uh, least – the Monica Suede Criss Cross Slide Sandal, by Dolce Vita.

Ugh. Feet.

These were comfortable, and even though I was lukewarm on how they looked, I was actually halfway excited about them because I thought they could be my I-should-wear-something-nicer-than-flip-flops-but-screw-wearing-heels shoes.

And then I looked at the price tag.

Hahahaha. I’m sorry, but $70 is just way too much for shoes I’m not really excited about. I also don’t really love slide-on sandals – I’m more of a ankle strap kind of gal.

So, like everything else, back they went.

Cost: $70. Verdict: Sent back.

Once more, I sent back everything. I was really hoping I’d be able to get something fun to wear over 4th of July weekend, but this just wasn’t the box for me. It seems like I need to really write out how things fit, as that’s the biggest problem. Next time I’ll be asking for more fitted tops, and maybe more forgiving dresses, as it seems I’m getting the two sort of in reverse of what I actually need.

If this review hasn’t completely dissuaded you, I’d definitely recommend you give Stitch Fix a try. Especially since if you order for delivery before July 28, my referral link will get you $25 too – that’s enough to cover your styling fee, meaning you’re out nothing if you don’t like your fix.

If you DO decide to try it, I’d love to hear how it goes!

 

4-month check-in: Coming out of the fog

Somehow, some way, my baby boy turned 4 months old this week. I figure that means it’s time for a check-in.

Since the last update – or really, the first update – so much has changed. Franklin is sleeping well (usually), growing (constantly) and changing (every day). I’m back at work (yay/boo) and Franklin is in daycare (boo/yay), and we’re settling into a bit of a routine (sort of).

Yes. Everything has a caveat and every day is different, but I’m happy to say we’re mostly out of the newborn fog and he’s starting to really show us his personality.

And oh, what a personality he has.

Aside from when his mean mom and dad make him go get his shots (like yesterday – sorry dude), Franklin is typically a happy, chill baby. He has a big, gummy grin that I just absolutely cannot get enough of.

And of course, those EYES.

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It’s that bright eyed, smiling – and giggling – little face that has brought me around the corner from “OH MY GOD WHAT DID WE DO” to “OH MY GOD, LOOK WHAT WE DID!”

So what’s so different?

He smiles. He chatters. He responds. He giggles. He interacts.

Basically, he’s realized there are more ways to get our attention than simply wailing like a banshee.

Of course, it’s still not all puppies and rainbows. He still cries for no reason at times. He still wants to be held – a lot – making getting anything accomplished around the house a near impossibility. I’ve managed to come down with the stomach flu twice, which is miserable when you have to care for and be solely responsible for feeding a small human.

But it feels worth it.

The rough nights of sleep are usually followed by a good night.

The early morning wake-ups are met with a smiling, cooing baby who is completely thrilled to see my face, hovering drowsily over his crib.

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The constant need to be held is a reminder that he needs me and loves me, and that being his mom is my most important job right now.

I feel like the days aren’t simply flying by in a mindless blur, and I hesitate to say I even feel a bit human again.

Of course, I still wonder if we’re doing it right, but I spend less and less time fretting over the little things and find myself trusting my gut without checking 45 websites to make sure I’m right.

I mean hey, I’ve kept him alive this long, right? I must not be so bad at this mom gig.

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Stitch Fix Review: Fix #5 – Post-baby Fix

Now that little dude is 3 months old (yes, it’s true, and no, I don’t want to talk about it), I figured it was time to go ahead and schedule another Stitch Fix.

Well that, and the fact that I asked for Stitch Fix credits for Christmas, so I had some money to burn.

Hooray, free monies!

So of course, that means another Stitch Fix review. A quick reminder for anyone who doesn’t know, Stitch Fix is an online service where you set up a profile, pay $20 and have a personal stylist send you five curated items they think will suit your needs/wants. Once they arrive, you get three days to try things on, mix-and-match with items from your own closet, and decide what you want to keep. If you keep anything, your $20 up front goes toward your final total; if you keep everything, you get a 25% discount on the entire box. It’s super easy and, if you’re like me and hate to shop, easy is what you need when you need new clothes. Plus, referral links (like the ones in this post) get you $25 credit for each time someone orders a fix.

For my first fix post-baby, I knew I wanted to aim for a new pair of jeans (like always) and a couple tops I could wear to work that would be forgiving in the midsection.

Because, you know, I just spent the previous year being stretched out and rearranged from the inside and, believe it or not, everything didn’t immediately settle right back into place.

Thanks, tiny human.

So I filled out my request asking for jeans and forgiving tops and waited impatiently for it to arrive.

(Forgive me, but I threw out the info on these before I wrote up this post, so I’m working from memory. Which of course is flawed, because baby brain.)

First off, the two tops they sent were fantastic.

PaperMoon Iglesia Pleated Blouse

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Oooh, pretty.

PaperMoon Bret Raglan Top

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Oooh, comfy.

They were fitted enough to have some shape, but flowy through the middle which is what I asked for.

Cost: $48 each. Verdict: Kept.

Next up, the jeans. Pretty awesome.

Mavi Freida Skinny Jean

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These jeans are a mid-rise, so they help hold in the gut a little while not being so high-waisted that they remind me of my maternity jeans.

Oh, maternity jeans. I have a love/hate relationship with maternity jeans. But that’s neither here nor there.

Cost: $98. Verdict: Kept.

These dress pants, while super flattering, were just not something I needed.

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Umm…  Oops. I totally forget the name of these. Ultimately I wish I could have kept them – they were high waisted and smoothing without being too tight – but at $98 for a pair of pants I had no real need for, I couldn’t justify the price. More on that in a minute.

Cost: $98. Verdict: Sent back.

OK. Now the dress.

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Lol whoops – forgot to take off mah socks.

Come on, Stitch Fix. This dress again?

They sent me this wrap dress again in a different pattern. Or maybe it’s not the exact same dress, but guess what? Still not flattering.

Wrap dresses are supposed to be almost universally flattering, but there’s something about the fact that this is a faux wrap, meaning there’s actually an elastic waist in there, that makes this dress hit in all the wrong places.

Kind of like it did last year. Because I’m the same person.

(True story – I was actually a few weeks pregnant when I got the blue one but hadn’t told anyone yet. Early pregnancy bloat = remarkably similar to post-pregnancy pooch. Good stuff.)

So yeah. Shocker, Stitch Fix, I still don’t want to spend money on a dress that makes me look wider, shorter and squishier than I am.

Cost: $68. Verdict: Sent back. Sent back so hard.

Probably the thing that annoyed me the most about getting this dress again – aside from feeling like I was being shorted an item – was that had I received those dress pants with any other fix, I probably would have kept them. As it was, I lost the $90 5-item discount because I just would not keep that dress.

Yep. I essentially would have PAID $30 to send back that dress had I kept the pants.

So the pants went back, along with the dress, even though they were pretty flattering and probably could have found a place in my wardrobe.

Le sigh. So close. Maybe next time will be the one where I keep all five items, Stitch Fix.

Assuming you stop sending me this dress, of course.

Welcome to the world, Franklin

I’ve been trying to write this post for almost more than two weeks. Story of a new mom’s life, I guess.

I mean, I had a whole, 28-days later “mombie” theme all planned out when I started writing this at the 4 week mark. It was pretty sweet, as you can imagine. But since little dude is now almost more than 6 weeks old, it loses its luster a bit.

Seriously. See those strikethroughs? This is taking forever to finish.

Eso si que es.

So here I am, finally getting a chance to tell you all about the crazy little whirlwind that started November 22, 2015.

The short version: Franklin Marcus Manet was born at 11:28 a.m., kicking and screaming and perfectly healthy.

And so, I’ve spent the better part of the last 5.5 weeks two months solidly on the couch, under the influence of a heady cocktail of baby snuggles and spit up, topped with a dose of sleep deprivation for good measure.

I’ve lost all concept of time. Honestly, the only real reason I know it’s been that long is because Christmas already happened, and by nature of the fact that he arrived before Thanksgiving, that puts us at over a month. The days – OK, weeks – have flown by, and here I am, about to start 2016 as a mom.

Weird.

But let’s back up a bit. I’m going to commit little dude’s birth story to the internet, so if you don’t want to read about how he arrived, skip to the bottom.

Now, for the long version…

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I woke up in the middle of the night on November 22. Not entirely unusual for someone who’s 9.5 months pregnant, but things got real pretty quickly.

2:30 a.m.: Wake up to pee (shocker, right?) and notice what feels like gas pains – oh, the many joys of pregnancy – until I realized they were coming and going in waves, about every 2-3 minutes.

3:00 a.m.: Wake up Darrell and tell him I think something might be happening. He’s confused as to how I don’t know for sure. I tell him to get a shower just in case.

6:30 a.m.: Contractions still aren’t that painful, but since they’re still coming around every 2 minutes or so, we decide to head to the hospital. Pack the bags, load the car and we’re off.

7:30 a.m.: We’ve arrived at the hospital and checked into Labor and Delivery Triage. The nurse gets me hooked up to the monitors and while we can see some contractions, they’re minor at this point. She checks and I’m only 80% effaced and 1-2 cm dilated.

Crap.

She said she’d come back and check again in about an hour, so we hung out in the triage room. Contractions were picking up in intensity but were still pretty tolerable, so I was afraid I wasn’t progressing and we’d get sent home.

8:30 a.m.: Nurse comes back to check and I’ve progressed to a 2, 2.5 cm and fully effaced. She said it was definitely real labor but that being a first time mom, it could take a while. She encouraged me to walk the halls and see if we couldn’t get things moving a bit.

So we walked.

9:30 a.m.: After an hour doing laps (and getting more painful contractions) we go back to the nurse and she checks me again. 3 cm. At this point she asks if I’m wanting an epidural and I tell her I’d like to go natural if possible. She was excited for me to do it and said that getting from 2 to 5 cm was the worst part … once I got to 5, she’d expect me to go a centimeter an hour.

We start walking again, this time needing to pause and really work through each contraction. A random physician walked by me when I was doubled over in the hall and asked if I was OK.

Dude, you’re in the labor and delivery wing. What do you think I’m doing here? Carry on.

10:20 a.m.: These contractions have GOT to be moving things along, so we go back to the nurse to check again. She says I’m 4, 4.5 cm and it’s time to check into labor and delivery.

Waiting for them to set up the room was torture, and I was starting to seriously reconsider getting that epidural. She’d said a cm/hour after 5, right? I can’t take 5 more hours of this! I started asking questions – when would I have to decide, what would I need to do, etc. if I wanted the epidural. They said they’d have to call in the on-call OB if I wanted it because she’d have to approve it first, and that they’d only call her if I said I did.

I told them I’d check for progress one more time, and decide. Mentally I’m prepared to hear things stalled and I’m still a 5, and if so, I’m getting all the drugs.

11:00-ish: I finally get into the bed, get hooked up to the monitors and they check again. 7 cm with bulging waters.

Scratch that. Water breaks. Time to call in the OB … and no time for the epidural.

The doctor arrives and checks again – I’m 9.5. She tells me to let her know when I feel the urge to push.

Um. Right now. Pretty sure I was actually already pushing, but yeah.

NOW.

The contractions were pretty much right on top of each other and I could barely breathe. In fact, I apparently turned blue and needed oxygen, but they coached me through and a few minutes later…

11:28 a.m.: Franklin Marcus Manet was born, kicking and screaming and perfectly healthy.

7 pounds, 1 ounce of absolute perfection.

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Life has been a complete blur around here, but I suppose that’s life as a new mom. My ability to publish a blog in any reasonable amount of time is hiding somewhere, probably along with my ability to finish a hot cup of coffee or to put on anything other than pajamas when I get dressed in the morning.

Of course it’s worth it, to see the little guy we’ve brought into the world growing like crazy. We waited so long and went through so much in the process, sometimes it’s hard to believe he’s actually here.

But I’m not going to pretend like it’s all sunshine and rainbows. The truth is becoming a mom is by far the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Nothing could have prepared me for the emotional and physical struggles I’ve gone through over the past few weeks.

Physically, I recovered from the delivery pretty easily, with the exception of feeling nauseated for the first 2-3 weeks post partum. I’d never heard of post-partum nausea (until I Googled it, of course), but apparently it’s a thing and it felt like I was back in the first trimester all over again, but worse. I am so incredibly happy that part is over.

Emotionally, it’s been a roller coaster. Blame the hormones or the sleep deprivation (or more likely, both), but the first 3 weeks had me oscillating between confident new mom and anxiety-ridden mess, many times a day, every single day. Everyone talks about how hard it is, but there was really no way to prepare for how very seriously hard it is.

It’s like your first day at a new job, doing something you’ve never done before, and getting no feedback whatsoever that you’re doing it right. With your mind telling you you’re doing everything wrong.

On no sleep.

Every day. And every night.

And your only coworker has no idea what they’re doing either.

I still have my moments, but for the most part, the anxiety has been replaced by an incredible amount of love toward this little guy who depends on us so much.

I’m still stressed and over tired, sure, but I look at his face and know we’re falling into a new normal. I’m gaining confidence every day and he’s growing more and more into a person with a personality, giving actual feedback as best he can.

I mean, he SMILES. Actually smiles at us now.

And it might just be the greatest thing I’ve ever seen.

Welcome to the world, Franklin. I can’t wait to see the mark you leave on it.

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Photo courtesy of Meagan White Photo. She rocks. Check her out and see more of Franklin’s newborn shoot here

October 15th – Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

As most of you already know, last year was a rollercoaster for us as we tried to grow our family.

I shared in September the news that we’d lost our second pregnancy and in November, that the loss had been determined a partial-molar pregnancy, putting us on hold for a minimum of three months. After a third loss in January, we decided to see a specialist to determine if there was a genetic or other underlying cause for these repeat losses.

Somewhere in the neighborhood of a million tests later, we found … nothing.

Finding nothing wrong gave us no answers, but it did give us the go ahead to continue trying on our own and, in March, we discovered we were expecting the son who’s been growing inside of me for the past 34 weeks.

This November, almost a year to the day of our first estimated due date, we’ll get to meet him.

We’ll get to meet the child who has softened the grief we’d felt so sharply all last year.

But today, October 15, is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, a day for all families to remember their children gone too soon, either through miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, still birth or as an infant. It’s something that affects so many families, and yet very few people speak about it openly.

Since first sharing with you about our losses, dozens of friends and family have opened up to me about their stories, too. People have reached out with condolences, questions and sympathies, and even gratitude for starting the conversation – proving that pregnancy loss is something that happens to so many, while so few feel comfortable talking about it.

That’s why today is so important.

While all of October is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month, this day in particular is set aside for remembering those we’ve lost. At 7 p.m., families around the world will light candles in their memory, keeping them lit for an hour to create a Wave of Light around the globe.

Once again, Darrell and I will be one of those families, remembering ours as well as those of our friends and family.

For us, the passage of time and the impending arrival of our son have made this year much less melancholy.

For others, the grief is still very real.

Let today remind us that we don’t have to suffer that grief alone.

Stitch Fix Review: Fix #4 (Maternity Fix)

It’s been a while since I posted one of these, but since my lovely sister ordered her first fix last week using my referral link, I had $25 to spend and a dwindling closet that could use a few new pieces, so here we are…

My first Maternity Stitch Fix!

I updated my style profile to let the folks at Stitch Fix know I’m expecting in November, and asked for a few pieces I could wear on the regular, either to work in my casual office or out running errands.

I’m pretty lucky in that my sister gave me a ton of great stuff (thanks Kim!) from her maternity days, but her style and work environment differ a bit from mine.

She’s fancy. I’m not.

So aside from a few of her tops and jeans, I’ve been relying pretty heavily on the two pairs of shorts I bought, along with a handful of Old Navy tank tops that are nearing their limits.

Sorry, tank tops. I’m gonna wear you til you wear out or you’re no longer long enough to cover the belly, whichever comes first.

OK. Back to the box.

My Stitch Fix arrived yesterday and when I first opened it, I was pretty excited. There were some awesome colors and the fabrics felt nice, always a good start to a fix. Per the husband’s request, I started my fashion show with the dresses.

Up first: Abilene Printed Maternity Dress by Leota Maternity.

Bummmmmp.

Bummmmmp.

This dress is cute, light and comfortable. It also gets bonus points because (I think) you could potentially continue wearing it post-partum, as the wrap-style collar gives you a bit of leeway for nursing.

That being said, though, it’s a bit expensive when I think about what I’d actually need it for. I don’t HAVE to wear dresses to work, though I can, so I filed this one away into the if-I-keep-the-whole-box, box.

Spoiler alert: I don’t keep the whole box.

Cost: $98. Verdict: Sent back.

Next up, the Gabre Maternity Dress by Eight Sixty Maternity.

Cute dress, terrible picture. Sorry guys.

Cute dress, terrible picture.

Alright, I have to admit, I really love this dress. You can’t tell from the picture (because I’m a terrible selfie-taker and am way too lazy to make someone else do it), but it’s a very pretty navy blue dress with a cut-out overlay. The back dips down a bit (not too much), there are pleats over the bump and overall, it has some really cute details and it’s even comfortable, like a big T-shirt.

But again – when am I going to wear this? For the price, I couldn’t justify it on it’s own, and again, it fell into the maybe, if I keep everything, category. It also doesn’t help that my sister gave me a maternity dress (in gray) with a very similar style/cut, so if I were going to wear a dress like this, I’d probably stick with the one I already have.

Bummer. Sorry, adorable dress. You deserve someone who wants you as much as you want to be wanted.

Or something.

Cost: $94. Verdict: Sent back.

Maternity shopping is so weird. Clothes are expensive, but you’re only going to wear them a few times before you’re back in regular clothes. I think had this been a non-maternity purchase, I would have shelled out the cash. But seeing as how I won’t be this size and shape forever, it doesn’t make much financial sense. Le sigh.

Alright, next up, the laughable Azalea Cold Shoulder Maternity Knit Top by Loveappella Maternity.

Seriously. Why?

Seriously. Why?

My face in this picture pretty much sums up my feelings on it. Why. WHY would you make this shirt for maternity?

I feel like I can see gears turning for the men (obviously, men) who designed this shirt:

“Hey, guys, girls get fat when they’re pregnant, right? But like, what part of their body doesn’t get fat, so we can show that off?”

“Uhh, derr, her shoulders.”

“Bro YES – CUT OUT THE SHOULDERS!”

Pair those unattractive shoulder slits with a tight (why?) but loose (what?) knit fabric that highlights the fact that my belly button is flattening and widening, and you have this perfectly hateable shirt.

Gross.

Cost: $48. Verdict: Sent back.

Now this one. This one, I’m bummed about.

The Anaheim Roll Sleeve Maternity Top by Loveappella seemed at first to be awesome. I mean hey, I’m even smiling in the picture!

Aww, prematurely happy.

Aww, prematurely happy.

It fits my basic style (half-sleeved tees, ftw), is a good length and simple enough to go with any number of pants/shorts/leggings to get good use out of it.

And then, it started. The itching. Dear lord, the fabric on this thing itches!

Now that I’m writing this, I realize it’s those guys at Loveappella again.

“Hey man, pregnant ladies aren’t like, constantly uncomfortable, right? Itchy fabric is NBD, right?”

“Totally. Totally NBD.”

If I’m going to drop money on a comfortable T-shirt, it needs to be that: comfortable. I couldn’t get this thing off fast enough.

Cost: $58. Verdict: Sent back.

Alright, before you think I’m just a big, pregnant hater, not everything went back.

The lone survivor from my first maternity fix was this pair of Kiley Maternity Ankle Zip Leggings, by Rune.

Oh hey there, fancy zipper.

Oh hey there, fancy zipper.

Again, it may be hard to tell in the picture, but they’re a deep navy (almost purple?) and the zipper detail is in gold. Seeing as how we’re coming up on fall – hooray! – and the supportive maternity waist on these means I’ll probably actually wear them post-partum to hold in all the jigglies, they seemed like a legit purchase.

Plus, since this box was free via a referral, the final cost was totally reasonable. And they’re super stretchy, thick and comfortable. Win, win, win.

Cost: $58 ($33 after $25 credit). Verdict: Kept!

Ultimately, this fix was a total mixed bag. Two things went back gladly, two more I’m a bit reluctant to put into the mailing envelope. But I just can’t justify the expense on something I know I won’t get much use out of, and unfortunately, I just don’t wear dresses all that often.

I was really hoping to see more inexpensive basics, considering the short lifespan of maternity clothing. I should probably update my style profile to reflect that.

My bad, Stitch fix; my bad.