The light falls on darkened shades, designed to keep it out.
I lie awake, pretending
He’s filling up with doubt.
The lies I’ve told are catching up; there’s no where left to go
I’m lying, dying
But soon he’s going to know.
The fines and goods I’m swearing, the feelings that I hide
They’re eating up, they’re killing
They’re burning me alive.
Time so slowly passes, the minutes creeping by
The hope, the fear, the waiting,
We have nothing left but time.
No answers, proof or promises, we’ll never know for sure
I smile, wait, let the lie soak in
I’m fine, we’ll live, we’ll just have to try again.
But time has yet to heal the ache, though the hours still drag on
From two to three and back again
The truth is, fine is gone.
As I mentioned yesterday, poetry is something I’ve always dabbled in but have never posted to this blog. I’m not sure how often I’ll post poems here, but here goes nothing!
For the past year, I’ve been trying to maintain this blog as both a personal and professional space, walking the line between what’s on my mind and what’s appropriate for client eyes. Today, that’s going to change a little bit.
Obviously, in this wonderful world of interwebs – and with a blog name that is my actual name – there’s no getting away from this being entirely public. However, when I think about why I’ve been incapable of writing the last few months, I realized it’s because I’ve been trying to put forward only a professional persona. As I surely try to think of topics that will be of interest to a broader, more professional audience, I still want to be able to stretch creatively, write from the heart and experiment in a slightly safer space than one tied to my business site.
So today, I’m unlinking this blog from my business page in order to gain a little creative freedom. Most importantly, I’ve been dabbling in poetry again after a long hiatus, and would like to be able to share those here. Because of their deeply personal nature, I don’t believe poems really belong on a business page.
Good thing I’m already maintaining two pages, right?
I hope this new divide allows me to write more often; I’m certain drawing a line between the personal and the professional will allow both sites to become more focused.
Looking forward to sharing with you,